Thanksgiving for Heresy

The following reflection was written in 2003, when I was between 25 and 26 years old.


The two-tape Nine Inch Nails video Closure was due out around Thanksgiving of 1997. It came out late though. I don’t remember how late, but it came out late. I do recall eventually buying it and watching snippets from it with my brother John up in my room at our parents’ house. I don’t remember if that was around Thanksgiving or Christmas now though. It could have been either.

The importance of this memory, whenever the fuck it happened, was that John and I were bonding. We hadn’t gotten along real well ever. Maybe we had when we were kids, but all I really remember about our adolesence is him giving me shit. That’s what little brothers are for though. In this particular memory though, we were up in my room watching a video of a band we both liked and well, that was something to me.

Perhaps it was because he was now in college like me or perhaps it was because we were both just so anxious to see what the hell Trent Reznor had cooked up for us this time. Who knows? The end-result is all that’s important in this particular story. For the first time in a while, my brother and I were a little like the smiling brats in my parents’ old photo albums.

I just thought I should mention it.