The Reconciliation

The following reflection was written in 2003, when I was between 25 and 26 years old.


One of the last memories I have of spending time at CHS before the beginning of senior week activities was when I spent an afternoon finishing up the cover for the last issue of the Voice and JonMartin wandered in to talk about everything that had been going down between us over the past couple of months. It was the official cessation of hostilities and really, I couldn’t have been happier. I was glad to have my friend back.

JonMartin, it turned out, had already tried to approach me about putting the past behind us at least once. At the Brigadoon cast party, when I had seen him and avoided him, he told me that he’d wanted to talk. There were probably other times too but I was still too bitter. After all, not only had I lost the friendship but I’d also lost the relationship that I lost the friendship over.

When Jon and I spoke in the graphic design lab that afternoon I think I was a little uncertain how it was going to work out, this whole “us being friends again” thing. After all, I think we’d treated each other quite badly for a long while. At least I had treated him badly. Of that I am sure. I wasn’t sure whether it would work but I wanted it to work and really, that’s the most important thing. If you want it to work than forgiveness almost always will.

He was still friendly with Stander, which didn’t sit well with me. I wasn’t willing to be friends with Stander again, not unless I had to. As my bitterness with Jon had died down I came to blame Stander for a lot of what had happened between Tracy and I.

Anyway, it should be noted that Jon made the first move in getting our friendship back together. It took a lot of courage to approach me and I’ll forever respect him and be grateful to him for doing so.