Sticking to the Schedule
I had a rough one today. I’m sure that doesn’t surprise anyone. Work was as demoralizing as ever. My writing isn’t going well. And, I’m getting sick. It’s hard to stay positive when someone speaks to every negative aspect of your being to someone else while you’re right there in the room. It’s hard to stay positive when you’re failing miserably at the one thing you’re supposed to be good at. And, it’s hard to stay positive when illness infects your body.
When it all hits at once, and when you’re a negative person to begin with, being positive is not something that happens. It’s not something that happens at all.
The sore throat I woke up with this morning is apparently the harbinger of much worse symptoms to come. Everyone in my office has experienced some variation of this cold/flu and I guess it was only a matter of time before I caught it. I had hoped that my eating healthy and exercising would hold it off but that wasn’t meant to be.
I worked out tonight, which maybe I shouldn’t have done, and it was hard. I don’t know about tomorrow. I think I will try again, regardless of how I feel, because I will probably miss Thursday and Friday already due to a party and the impending release of The Return of the King. I may regret it, but who knows?
The important thing is that sticking to my schedule, no matter how hard it is, has helped me to fend off some of the negativity. If I always exercise and I always write, then those become my constants, my security. Anything else that happens may dampen my spirit but, hopefully, will not drown it.