Do Or Do Not?
My apathy, I suppose, is becoming legendary. Today I watched the Patriots win their nineteenth straight game, a league record, and I didn’t do much else. Earlier in the morning, I screwed around with the computer a bit. I had every intention of getting to my writing and reading at some point. I really did. I just didn’t. It’s the story of my life lately and I really need to revise that story.
It’s never that I don’t want to work on things, except maybe with that last book I was reading (The Blue Bowl by George Minot). I do want to work on stuff. I just can’t do it. I feel as though something holds me back, like a wall is standing in front of me , or else a door that I don’t have the key to. It feels like a very real, very physical barrier that I have to break through. That’s the only way I can explain it.
So, I’ll try to get it done tomorrow. I’ll try to do that and get my oil changed and maybe even go out for drinks with a friend, as had been suggested last week. I’ll try not to spend any time in front of this computer messing around with it. I’ll try to just focus on writing and getting my shit done.
That’s what I’ll try to do. Wish me luck on actually doing it.