May Fifth

Today I spent most of my day inside the apartment doing absolutely nothing and it was quite fun, to tell you the truth. I learned how to relax, if only for one day. That being said, May 5th hasn’t always been a day spent vegging out on the couch. No. May 5th has been quite a day in years past. Let’s look back for a moment.

On May 5th, 1999 I was ranting about Star Wars Episode I, the senior class bar crawl, and my friend Rachael E-mailing me for the first time in a year.

A year and three days later, on May 8, 2000 I was reliving the pain of my Auntie Donna’s passing and talking about delayed grief. I talked about the difficulty of writing and how I felt I’d failed myself by not writing every day in this journal, the way I swore I would.

If I’d just made a resolution like the one I made this year maybe I would’ve written on May 5, 2000 and made writing tonight’s entry a lot easier. I suppose I could’ve invented an entry for May 5, 2000 and inserted it into the archives and referenced that but whatever…

Last year, on May 5, 2001 I wrote about kayaking on the island of Kaua’i and driving the length of the road that runs around that island all the way to the end where the road just stops, turning into a parking lot overlooking the beach and the Pacific Ocean.

You see folks, this is why I love journaling. I can look back on any given day over the last four years or so and I know what I was doing. I have an amazing memory for remembering little details but I don’t always remember what order those little details happened in. Having a journal to look back on helps me put it all into perspective.